some thoughts on music in my life

What a wonderful day! I couldn't stop smiling this evening. I felt so content! Some good things happened today.

It all involves music. Why is music such a balm to the soul? If you are feeling down, music can lift your spirits. If you are happy, music goes with your good feelings. If you are troubled, music can be a comfort. I'm not saying music is everything. Maybe I am exagerrating. But I feel like music comes along with you during all the different times in your life. People have been doing music from the beginning of time. It is a gift, that's for sure.

Right now, I am in a battle for my health and my way of life. I have been struggling with illness for a few months, and I got so scared that I might lose everything. Music joined with me to affirm my life and to lift my mood and increase my energy. I can't say how fun it has been to get some exercise while listening to 'The Sweet'. Upbeat happy music (well, at least some of it!) has been helpful. I'm seriously considering buying some more music, although money is tight, as usual.

I have always wanted to be able to play the guitar. I'm promising myself right now that I am going to get some lessons and learn some songs so that I can sing and play the guitar for myself. I don't care how I sound. I'm not going to play in front of anyone. I just want to be able to comfort myself with some songs. I have this really nice beginners guitar that has a lot of vibration in the body when you play it. It will be so nice to hold my guitar against my body and get that vibration going. (FYI: breedlove atlas series). I need to stop procrastinating. I mean, I can goof around with my guitar starting tomorrow. But then I can look for some lessons that will keep me interested. I know a guy at my church who might teach me for a reasonable fee.

Tonight, I ate something kinda unhealthy, for the first time in a few weeks. My husband wanted to get hamburgers, and at first I was just going to go along with him and watch him eat. But then I realized I was hungry and could have a meal at that time. So I had a plain hamburger (no cheese, no mayonnaise) with french fries and a diet coke. It's not the worst thing you can eat. But it's still got a lot of fat in it. I have been feeling so much better since I got the fat out of my diet. So tomorrow, I will get back to eating healthy foods. Tonight, I will go sleep and dream. Hopefully I have good dreams for a change! Last night, I dreamt that I visited my sister-in-law after she gave birth to my neice, and I got in a huge argument with the nurse about how they were treating my SIL. I must be having anxiety about the idea of having another child.